The last few days have been a little weird for me. I have been off for the holidays but I have not gone anywhere. I decided to spend my money on Christmas gifts and I think it paid off just fine. I cleaned the house for 3days straight and boy am i sore but it looks like this now.
My son Myles came down from college and has decided to spend the week here instead of going back up to Saginaw. I was totally geeked! Taylor my youngest son lives with me and we don't get to see Myles as often as we would like so I am glad he decided to stay. Taylor will be working 2nd shift as of the new year and I woke up to the smell of bacon!?!
When I got downstairs I expected breakfast made for me but it was just enough for Taylor, so I went out to heart and soul to write my last blog of 2010.
I have been sad for two days and sore from playing xbox360 kinncet. My shoulders are so sore because you have to be the controller and it is great exercise! Wow am I out of shape.
I really need to start going to the gym and working out.
The reason I am sad is Taylor is hiding his feelings from me and does not want to be at my warm and loving house anymore.
Now yes he is 20, and at that age the world is your oyster and nothing can stop you, I remember it was just yesterday for me.....
I wish he would think about how bad the world is swallowing up people twice his age are affected more than ever before.
This recession should not make us leave and try to make it on our own, it should bring us closer together.
I really wish he would just talk with me and not be so stubborn.
Only time will tell.
I love you Taylor, no matter how stubborn you are.
(side note from parenthood which I think is my new favorite show so far this year.)
(Line from the show that aired last night it was a young man that worked at the homeless soup kitchen.)
I am solid....when your young you have to go along with who people think like your parents think you are and should be. I get that, but my parents where not there for me and at 16 I emancipated myself. I ate at the soup kitchen a lot then and I am thankful that I pulled it together. My dad was a drunk and I have been sober for 6 month now. I am now solid.
Now that I am a adult I get to be who I want to be live it the way I see it and I love myself more than ever.
Accept me for that and I will succeed.
Don't judge me for my past when I had so little control over my upbringing,look at me as the wonderful hardworking young man putting himself though collage.
Proud of what I have suffered for and not so proud of my failures.
I have stopped living in the past and have accepted myself for the Man I am, building a successful future for myself.
(I loved that speech and it fit with exactly with the situation last night. I don't like to quote but it was worth it. I could not have said it better.)
I am also very proud of both my young men. I am thankful that they have adjusted well since there mom died, and that I can keep a roof over my head for all my friends and roommates that make me feel loved in this messed up world we live in. On a lighter note, I just received a letter from the dean at college, that I am on her Dean's list. I have a 3.17 and she wanted to thank me for putting so much effort into my schooling.
I really thank the powers above for all my friends and the time to get some kind of degree so late in the game. It is harder for us over 40 to go back to school and I emailed all day knowing that that letter was a pat on the back that I needed here at the end of the year.
Jamie got home last night from his moms and got me a wonderful gift. He dropped it off before he left but I wanted to wait to open it when he was there. He got me a cashmere scarf and I have to say it make me look marvelous! This is Jamie with his and Michael's baby.
Well it is time to say goodbye to 2010 and hello abundant 2011!
I look foreword to the adventure and know next year hold success and great adventure for me.
New years eve here we come!
-- Post From Little Rayray iPad
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